fear of past...

Afraid of your own shadows

you never look behind,

every past is a tape

you fear to rewind.

Some moments you wish

come back again,

but few others you know

always gave you just pain.

You don't know whose fault

you don't know whom to blame,

but you are the loneliest person on earth

is all what you claim.

Anxious to close your eyes

you fear the flashback grave,

few words of care and concern

is all what you crave.

You think you are the only unlucky one

but its not the case,

every life has the same story,

just a different face....

But why...???

I am hurt,

no one ever realises.

But why

the pain behind these eyes goes unheeded?

People call me a loser,

I admit I am.

But why

no one tells me the reason?

There are times I think,

I found a good friend.

But why

am I always wrong?

Every opportunity I get,

I try to grasp.

But why

does it vanish in no time?

I want to be loved,

and love as well.

But why

no one cares about my feelings?

I thought ,

life was fair enough with me.

But why

this turned to be an illusion?

Emptiness in life,

is slowly killing me.

But why

no one responds to my cry for help?

Every night I close my eyes,

hoping they remain closed forever.

But why

life gives me this unwanted favour???

Crush

Are you thinking about a guy,

but don't know why?

You admire that guy,

but you feel very shy.

You find yourself staring,

but have no daring.

You find all this absurd,

but you utter no word.

You want to talk to him and be his chum,

but you go near him and act like you are dumb.

You are eager to know what he thinks about you,

Hey friend!You have a crush,nothing new!

life teaches a lesson again...

After a long time in life everything seemed good,

no one really hurt me and no one was rude.

I admired life for pampering me,

it gave me no sorrow nor grief to see.

I was addicted to elation,

and how blissful seemed every relation.

I made happiness a habit,still wondering why?,

wasn't I aware every sentiment can die.

When the time came for a bit of sorrow,

why wasn't there a way for some more joy to borrow?

I know I was a jerk to give such a thought,

so stupid was I to think that happiness could be bought.

But whatever may be the brutal pain,

I know life taught me a lesson again...

all alone...

On the lonely streets of life

all the bliss is sold,

What I am waiting for

is your hand to hold.

But I am all alone...

There is no one around

but walking long miles,

what I am waiting for

is just your smile.

But I am all alone...

I long for those moments

but now they are rare,

what I am waiting for

is you to care.

But I am all alone...

I walk ahead with hopes in heart

but seems like now they are lost,

what I am waiting for

is your glimpse at any cost.

But I am all alone...

I don't want to be alone

since everything is new,

what I am waiting for

is you just you!

So just don't leave me alone...

its not love...

No reason to laugh,no reason to smile.

You've nothing to do,so you just cry for a while.

You dream all day,you dream all night.

Suddenly you realize,something is not right.

Sometimes you are nice,sometimes you are rude.

'You simply throw attitude', is what people conclude.

You love the anguish,you love the pain.

But still you wish it flows away with the rain.

You want to run,you want to hide.

Or you badly need someone by your side.

Many times in life you come across this mess.

You've so much to say but no words to express.

Your confusion at that moment knows no bounds.

Some say 'you are in love',but how stupid that sounds.

If falling in love is supposed to be this way,

wouldn't it be happening to me almost everyday!!!

Death

At late hours of night

someone walked up to me,

I asked who he was

'I am death' said he.

'Can I touch you?' he said.

'This is all what your life was',

I pleaded for some more time

he surprisingly agreed going against the laws.

Escaping the death

isn't this what we call,

or was it just a dream

before the nightfall.

Whatever it may be

there was one thing I knew,

I ought to complete some tasks

before the time flew.

I did everything I could

but there was something I always forgot,

when I saw death come again

one last thing was to be done & I knew what.

'I need to tell,I love someone'

I cried before death,'could you please wait?',

but he took me in his arms and said,

'dear its too late...!'